Although I can hardly believe it, it's December. The last week of classes went by in a flash and here I am, in the midst of Dead Week with final exams in the coming week. It's incredible how fast the semester has gone by! Finals week seems to be a bit of a mixed barrel. Thankfully, I only have three sit-down finals, spread out through the week, although lucky me, has a final in the very last slot of the week: Friday, December 16, 7-10PM. I won't be able to come home as early as I would have liked but I'm excited to come home tomorrow for a few days to study and re-charge a bit. Although this time is certainly stressful, I'm not too overwhelmed simply because I know all of the hard work is almost over (at least for a few weeks). I'm much happier than I was a few weeks ago, ready to just get through my exams and go home for a while. My family and I will be making our yearly trip to Disneyland the week after I'm done with finals so I'm looking forward to the vacation. Every year is different but I hope this trip turns out okay. My dad has been pointing out how this may be one of our last trips just because my brother and I are getting older and we don't know exactly where I'll end up in the next year or two. It's strange to think about but true... I'm looking into an internship abroad this summer in Madrid and a few grad schools on the East Coast so we'll see what happens with all of that. I'm actually seriously considering Yale for graduate school. I'm skeptical about my chances of getting in but they have an impressive Spanish program and if it's meant to be, it'll happen. So much of my future is unclear at the moment but it's in God's hands and all I can do is try my best! Any and all prayers are welcome.
I took a detour this afternoon on my route home from work and spent some time alone in the chapel of my church here. It's been difficult for me to see Jesus in the everyday so I needed to put myself in a sacred space where I could look up and see His face on the cross. Even in my fear, I know He's watching over me and gently nudging me in the direction I need to go. Sometimes I wish He would give me more of a shove but His sense of timing is exponentially better than mine--I'm sure of it.
My walk home continued with some meditation on all that I have to be thankful for. I have a wonderful family, a small, yet extremely close and faithful, group of friends (some of which might as well be family for as much as they mean to me)... I'm a student at one of the best universities in the nation studying the subjects I love more than anything... I have a job that I love. So much, really. I think I need to spend more time letting those that I love know just how much they truly mean to me. I don't think I say it nearly enough--maybe I should start.